Fireproof - Day 1

How many times do we let our words fly out of our mouths without even thinking. This is a hard one for me recently. My words have been many and harsh. Angry about moving, angry about being placed in a city of strangers. Angry about being placed in a city of honking monsters. Blaming my husband for my situation instead of looking toward at what God has planned for us. I've been really trying hard to look toward the good, but in turn have been releasing all my anger on my husband. The slightest word has thrown me into a crying blob, trying to give me advice on how to adjust has thrown me into a angry crying blob. focused only on what my selfish wants are, and that's to be in Hawaii where I am comfortable. So my fits have been extreme, and poor Keith along with the boys has been looking at me like I've lost my mind. Keith, Micah, and Elijah Mom hasn't finally lost her mind just lost her focus.

Love Dare Day 1. " Love will inspire you to become a patient person. When you CHOOSE to be patient, you respond in a positive way to a negative situation. You are slow to anger. You CHOOSE to a long fuse instead of a quick temper. Rather than being restless and demanding, love helps you settle down and begin extending mercy to those around you." LOVE DARE DAY 1.

So today I'm not only learning how to have a long fuse with my husband but with my boys also. Not giving into emotions but allowing God to show me the blessings around me. This is harder to do then to type. Because Lord knows all I want is to be back in my comfortable environment, back in my home where I had friends, church family, and most of all WARMTH.

You will hear from me again tonight as I finish up this day with my boys and communication with my husband. I want nothing more than not be the temper tat rem child I have become over the last few months. I miss home, but will begin to see what Washington D.C. has to hold for me.