Give Me Your Eyes
Today actually has been a pretty easy day 1 on this journey =). Helps when your not living under the same roof during that time. =) I did most of my patience practice on the boys =). Funny how you love your kids so much, but they can be the biggest source of frustration at times.
I worked on finding ways to implement God back into our daily routine here at the Bean home. Today Quiet time with God was started. Taking time out from the games, TV and books to learn how to be still and allow time with God.So far so good =) Elijahs only tried to duck out of room twice so far =).
I have learned over the years that quiet time is important and just feel out of practice from it. So the work has begun to get back into that routine once again. Why is it God seems to be the first thing that gets shorted on?
God gave me the opportunity to touch someones life today by just walking to 7 eleven. A homeless man was sitting outside the door, As I was going in he asked for a simple hotdog. I bought the hotdog and a bottle of water, I handed the food to him and asked if I could sit down for a second to rest because I was on my way to the gym. I found that this man had lost his wife and kids in a fire, He lost everything and turned to alcohol. I began to tell him some of my life story, He began to cry and asked for me to pray with him. I did so, hugged him and told him that there is peace in the arms of God. He smiled at me and told me thank you. Believe me I was scared, here I am in a new city in one of the highest crime areas, No husband around and 2 kids at home waiting for me. I just felt that pulling towards this man,and I know God will use that for his glory in due time. My fear was overcome with pure peace as I sat down with the stranger and talked with him about God and his grace and mercy.I stepped out of my comfort zone into something I've never done before, and reached out to someone that is hurting. My new years resolution is to have the eyes of Christ. And I believe I made that first step. =)
I wish Keith was here to enjoy this time with me, and I pray that God gives him some peace tonight as he finishes his first day of school.
Day 1 Question.. Did anything happen today ti cause anger toward your mate? Were you tempted to think disapproving thoughts and to let them come out in words?
There was once today that I was more frustrated then disapproved of anything. It seems when we're apart that our lives begin being separate sometimes. I wait to tell him something, call thinking class is done to find out he's just starting another class. So I quickly hung up instead of getting upset I took my phone, took a picture of myself and sent him the picture. Saying I love you.
I could have continued with the frustration, went into my pitty party of being lonely, no adult conversation,and wanting to tell him about how God used me and I allowed myself to be used instead of running out of fear ,but instead decided to let go and let Keith know I loved him and was thinking about him without the words being said.
Let me tell you it's hard! I wanted to break down in tears especially when I hung up quickly with Keith, and the school calls to continue the issue of getting Elijah in school. Not wanting to deal with this alone, wanting to hand it to Keith but instead allowing God to water me with his love. Allowing my choice to stay focused on where reality is and seeing where my expectations are.
All in all a good day.. Love you Keith
I worked on finding ways to implement God back into our daily routine here at the Bean home. Today Quiet time with God was started. Taking time out from the games, TV and books to learn how to be still and allow time with God.So far so good =) Elijahs only tried to duck out of room twice so far =).
I have learned over the years that quiet time is important and just feel out of practice from it. So the work has begun to get back into that routine once again. Why is it God seems to be the first thing that gets shorted on?
God gave me the opportunity to touch someones life today by just walking to 7 eleven. A homeless man was sitting outside the door, As I was going in he asked for a simple hotdog. I bought the hotdog and a bottle of water, I handed the food to him and asked if I could sit down for a second to rest because I was on my way to the gym. I found that this man had lost his wife and kids in a fire, He lost everything and turned to alcohol. I began to tell him some of my life story, He began to cry and asked for me to pray with him. I did so, hugged him and told him that there is peace in the arms of God. He smiled at me and told me thank you. Believe me I was scared, here I am in a new city in one of the highest crime areas, No husband around and 2 kids at home waiting for me. I just felt that pulling towards this man,and I know God will use that for his glory in due time. My fear was overcome with pure peace as I sat down with the stranger and talked with him about God and his grace and mercy.I stepped out of my comfort zone into something I've never done before, and reached out to someone that is hurting. My new years resolution is to have the eyes of Christ. And I believe I made that first step. =)
I wish Keith was here to enjoy this time with me, and I pray that God gives him some peace tonight as he finishes his first day of school.
Day 1 Question.. Did anything happen today ti cause anger toward your mate? Were you tempted to think disapproving thoughts and to let them come out in words?
There was once today that I was more frustrated then disapproved of anything. It seems when we're apart that our lives begin being separate sometimes. I wait to tell him something, call thinking class is done to find out he's just starting another class. So I quickly hung up instead of getting upset I took my phone, took a picture of myself and sent him the picture. Saying I love you.
I could have continued with the frustration, went into my pitty party of being lonely, no adult conversation,and wanting to tell him about how God used me and I allowed myself to be used instead of running out of fear ,but instead decided to let go and let Keith know I loved him and was thinking about him without the words being said.
Let me tell you it's hard! I wanted to break down in tears especially when I hung up quickly with Keith, and the school calls to continue the issue of getting Elijah in school. Not wanting to deal with this alone, wanting to hand it to Keith but instead allowing God to water me with his love. Allowing my choice to stay focused on where reality is and seeing where my expectations are.
All in all a good day.. Love you Keith
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